Friendship

Since when a friend is not a friend anymore?

Do you bitch about each other behind the back?

Do you start to spill all the supposedly secrets?

Or other mean and unthoughtful stuff to each other?

I hope that I don't do that.

If I ever do that in the future,
I hope that I would have the conscious to stop whatever that I'm doing at that time.

I'm not that kind of person and I don't want to be that kind of person.

Just because a friendship or relationship ends does not mean that the other person is a bad person.
Nor does it mean that the other person is a jerk/assh*le or crazy.
Nor does it mean that the other person never cared about you or any of those things we often say.
It simply means that it wasn’t meant to work out and though it is horrible and unfortunate and sometimes heartbreaking, it’s NOT the end of the world.
Other friends will come along, other boyfriends and girlfriends will come along. Sometimes things just aren’t meant to be.
And that has to be OKAY.
It has to be okay because otherwise what do we have?

— Samantha Mott

You were my best friend and now, it seems like we don't know each other.

It still hurts.

I wish I knew how to repress everything.

I know it takes time. Lots of it.

Things has to be okay.

I know it. I'm gonna take all my time to be okay with it.



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Now playing: Bloc Party - One More Chance
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Brothers and Sisters

I've been working 12 days straight and one more day tomorrow before having one day break on this Sunday.

Waking up 7 in the morning and coming back around 8pm or 10pm (depending on the mercy of the KL traffic and the public bus) everyday is not fun.

The time you spent waiting for the bus or stuck inside the bus especially during the jam is seriously tiring.

Luckily my job is simple. Sell the tix if someone wants to buy it.
Other than that, I can basically surf the net, watch dramas, jam to songs and play James's Nintendo DS (Pokemon Platinum).
Basically its what I would do if I'm at home.
I'm so grateful for this job.
If not, I would have wasted 2months of my holiday sitting at home waiting for my already fat ass get fatter!

Well, there isn't much thingy going on around here at Istana Budaya.

Yesterday, it's just so sweet that one of my buddy drop by after his interview in MidValley for a late lunch here with me. Seriously, I just realized how much I'm being myself when I talked to him. I don't hold back anything that I wanted to say/share. Whatever crap or those inappropriate comment that I blast out will be received with a good laugh from both party.

I never thought it would be like this since I'm more of those kinda guy who would usually keep everything to myself, I don't really like to talk about myself. =) At least to strangers only lah.

And when I'm on my way back. I met one of my primary school friend.
We talk like there's no one else in the bus with us. It's great. Laughing. Updating on each others life. Well, he's very chatty these days. He's very funny and open minded too.

He told me what's happening with him these days. Same old same old but when he mentioned about the girl that he fancy. It seems that the family don't approve of the relationship just because the fact she have a different religious belief from him.

Aih, totally expected.

It's already so difficult to find someone that you actually like and he/she actually like you back at the same time.

And for a stupid reason (having different religous beliefs) you have to give up on someone that might just be the love of your life, all for the sake of other people's (i.e. parents or communities) "happiness" or other's concept of how you should live your life. Total BS.

It's not that I don't love my family but seriously, I do, more after I went to University.
If I'm gonna spend the rest of my life with that special someone, I think I need to have the responsibility to go and make my own decisions regarding on who I like/love or how I should live their life
AS LONG AS WHAT I'M ARE DOING IS NOT HURTING ANYBODY.

The family and communities's opinions can be take into consideration out of respect for everyone but it doesn't mean that you need to gave up on being who you are as a person just to satisfy other people opinions.

If two person who love each other wants to be together, who have the right to stop them from being together just because what someone's perception of what is normal or abnormal differs so greatly.

Don't be hatin' people.

I'm just glad I have few good GREAT friends supporting me all the way.
They are like my own Brothers and Sisters.
Understand me and not judging me for something or someone I'm not.
Thank God for that.

p/s: Just because I thanked God for this it doesn't mean that I'm religious.
I'm just more spiritual. I'm okay. Thank You.

Who would give a law to lovers? Love is unto itself a higher law. ~Boethius, The Consolation of Philosophy, A.D. 524

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Now playing: Adele - Melt My Heart To Stone
via FoxyTunes

Post It Notes + Cool MV

Video of the Day.



This has to be the coolest clip that I've watched this year.

And the fact they are using Royksopp's Eple is just pure brilliant.

Watch it!




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Now playing: Röyksopp - The Girl And The Robot (Feat. Robyn)
via FoxyTunes

Korean Wave~

I've been hit by the Korean Wave ever since SzuTzane recommend me Tae Yang from Big Bang.

Oh, how I wish I could speak Korean fluently.

So I can sing-a-long to the song that I love and at least understand what are they singing about.

Actually way before that, I already like The Wonder Girls.

Their 1st single, Tell Me is incredibly catchy. The MV is so funny and cuteeeeeee.

Here are some of the Korean songs that I LOVE.


The Wonder Girls - Tell Me


The 1st Korean pop song that I love. "Tell me tell me.. te- te- te- te- te- tell me.."

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Girls Generation (SNSD) - Gee


Addictive to the best. It's very girly but POP-goodness.
This version of the video showcasing their dance moves which I think its pretty and so cuteee.

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Seung Ri - Strong Baby


I call him the Justin Timberlake of Asia/Korea. LOL.
The style and dance move are kinda similar to JT. He's one fifth member of Big Bang.
I like the song, I like the beat and his live performance is very sleek and stylish. =) The solo, WOW. Gaya (Stylish in malay)

p/s: Crap crap crap crap.... LOL...

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Tae Yang - Look At Me


My favourite korean song ever. The vocal is smooth and the song is not too hip hop-ish.
The dance moves are slick and yeah, my type of guy. Stylish and very cute. Love the hair!
The solo dance part. One reaction: I'm in LOVE.

Nuff for now, don't feel like making this post super long. LOL. Have a nice day =)



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I totally forgot about this group.

Big Bang - FILA


Yup, its a song for the FILA brand, seriously, I think it's way too good for a "commercial" song...

Anywhere is paradise; it's up to you. ~Author Unknown

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Now playing: Norah Jones - Come Away With Me
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Lily Allen

Wow.

She released Fuck You as her 3rd single?

OMFG. I don't see how the song is going to receive any airplay here. HAHA.

If they're going to censored the good part, might as well don't play it.

For those who don't know anything about this song, It's not the I-fucking-hate-you that kinda vibe.

Its more of a cutesy-mix-sarcasm kinda of fuck you.

Plus, the beat for this song is so damn catchy and "summer". (Read: Addictive and Happy)

You will sing-along with it. Seriously.

Even one of my bestie who listen to Chinese songs only cos she said she don't get the lyrics of any English song, take lots of energy for her to digest the song.

BUT she absolutely LOVE this song.

Or maybe she got influenced by another bestie of mine who have quite a influence in our group.

Yup, I'm talking about you FPL. And yeah, I'm talking about our hair supermodel. =)

Here is the video for the song, supposedly promo only. =)
What's the meaning of promo only anyway? Any idea anyone?



I like the concept of the video where she goes around and change anything that she wants. =)

Cool MV.

Totally recommended.

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Roasted Chicken?

I think I finally figured out whats the deal with the "Chicken" on my blog title.

chicken
· n.
1 a domestic fowl kept for its eggs or meat, especially a young one.
2 a coward.

OR according to the online slang dictionary.

chicken.
adjective

1. afraid.

Seriously, after what happened this past few days, I think I found the "answer".

The fact that I can't mutter ANYTHING out when I supposedly got some "signals" from X/Y/Z.

I'm so ANGRY and PISSED at myself.

I know I wanted to say HI so badly, but I got frozen in time and become so unapproachable and weird.

My Face = Expressionless. I shall call "him" Mr Chicken from now on.

For those who knows me well, I'm NOT like that. Totally.

At least that's what I would love to think. =)

I don't know why I'm so CHICKEN to say anything.

It's not like I got anything to lose.

This sucks.

After some self-reflecting, I came to a conclusion of that I'm that kinda person who OVER think everything and my obsession with the the concept of perfection when meeting the "ONE".

The Fear of REJECTION might be also part of the reason why.

At least I think that's the reason why I turn into Mr Chicken in the 1st place.

So I think I'm gonna change the blog title into something new and total random.

Roller Coaster: Laugh or Yell?

Discussed this over MSN with Princess and she managed to interpret it into something metaphorically like this...

Just like life. Its like a Roller Coaster. So you either Laugh it off happily Or Yell and despair.

It does make a lot of sense to me.

Thanks Princess =)

Nuff' ranting from me.

Thank you so much for reading.

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Courage is resistance to fear, mastery of fear - not absence of fear.
Except a creature be part coward it is not a compliment to say it is brave.
~Mark Twain, Pudd'nhead Wilson's Calendar, 1894

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Now playing: The Click Five - Empty
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That's Gay

This guy is seriously funny. LOL. I like his sarcasm. Priceless. More power to him!



What do you think?






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Now playing: Cazwell - Money Back
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Quote of the Moment

Almost every man wastes part of his life in attempts to display qualities which he does not possess, and to gain applause which he cannot keep.
~ Samuel Johnson, The Rambler, 1750

If they are going to LOVE you, they're gonna LOVE you for who you are.

If they are going to HATE you, they're gonna HATE you NO MATTER WHAT.

Be TRUE to yourself. LOVE YOURSELF.


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Now Playing: The Veronicas - Untouched.

Battle of the Summer Anthem of '09

Hm, It's not like we have "summer" here in Malaysia. We only have two seasons here. Sunny/Summer day or rainy day. Oh, you can even count in the occasionally super thunder heavy storm. It's crazy, especially the City area due to more pollutions. I still love this country even though the public transportation sucks. :S

So, what's the deal with me blogging for the supposedly "summer" anthem of the year when Malaysia is like summer all year round? Why?

Because I don't think I need a reason to blog about the songs that I love, (at least at this moments).

Okay, nuff crappin'.

My picks for the battle of the summer anthem. Hm..

David Guetta feat. Kelly Rowland - When Love Takes Over

I love this track way before it's released to be a single. Glad that Kelly finally got the exposure she deserved. Her voice is like instantly recognizable. LVOE it.
Sunshine and the ocean and the beach....
Beyonce is like all over the place these days. Sick and tired of her. LOL.

Another David Guetta song that I like is Love Is Gone (Original Mix). A big difference from the original track but still good nonetheless. Check it out.



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2nd song is by the Black Eyed Peas - I Gotta Feeling.



Its wayyyy better than that annoying Boom Boom Pow.
I don't get that song at all.
Maybe its cos I'm not living in 3008 and still loving 2009. Bleh...
Back to this song, it's a major improvement over their annoyin' 1st single from the new album THE E.N.D.

I LIKE THIS. (Humming along That tonight's gonna be a good good night....)

The MusicVideo looks like fun! Partyyyyy!!!!! Glow in the Dark Paint! WOOOO...


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3rd choice is definitely Pitbull's - I Know You Want Me (Calle Ocho)



I totally dig this song even though there are some part of it which sounds like a total broken record that play the chorus over and over again.
Bet that the Spanish version is going to be more dirtyyyyy. With lots of culo thrown in. LOL.

Owh, the video. Not my kinda thing. So irrelevant. Girls shaking to the beat, He is the center of attention. Boring. Next.

Pitbull's Krazy is another fave jam of mine few years back. The clubbin scene is Malaysia especially the HipHop Club loves this track. Its like a staple song among few of the Akon and Lil' Jon's song.




The winner in my opinion....

I personally prefer the David's When Love Takes Over over the other two. The beat, it's not your typical song that got air in the local music scene here and I doubt that the Malaysia music scene will have a chance to appreciate this GEM. Except if you follow the music scene in UK.

Pitbull's - I Know You Want Me (Calle Ocho) is nothing new. Still the same old hip hop rap addictive beat and repetitive chorus. Sure fire hit in the clubbin' scene. No doubt about that.

BEP's I Gotta Feeling is fresh for now. But knowing the Malaysian Radio channel that loves to play the top track at the moment over and over again in a day would bore the sh*t out of me due to over exposure of the song. Malaysian love BEP. Almost all of their singles do well here since Where Is The Love, especially My Humps. But its been a long time I don't tune to the radio anymore. No time. Malaysian will lap it up like any previous single by the BEP.

I control my own music with my beloved iPod Shuffle. It's old and only have 512mb, but its still working fine. =) Trustworthy.

Now listening to: Maroon 5 - Makes Me Wonder

Public Bus!?

Imagine yourself rushing back home after a 12-hour "work" from 9am to 9pm.
While crossing the "bridge" to reach to the other side of the road's bus stop..

You saw the incoming feeder bus that you are suppose to get on before another round of bus ride back to home sweet home.

You run as fast as you can, breathing heavily cos you don't usually do much exercise and try to get on the bus before another 40mins of waiting for the next one if you miss this one.

Guess what?

You missed the bloody bus by 3 secs and the bus driver don't really give a damn about whether you are going to wait for another 30/40mins before the next one come.

Frustrated? No?

Of course, YOU in this story is me and the fact that you don't drive nor have a car for you to drive to your work place means that you are entirely depending on the mercy of the supposedly revamp and better RapidKL public bus service.

Malaysia's public transport sucks!

BUT,

At least I got a chance to cuci mata during the 2nd round of bus waiting. That seriously made my day a lil bit better. I'm shallow, but hey, it's not like I could start a conversation with a stranger to get to know him/her better before thinking he/she is cute, right?


so, what kinda post is this? Seems very irrelevant...

Nothing much, I just want to rant. Oh, there is another 15 more days to go for me =)

People, please pray for me that I can cuci mata every now and then so at least it won't be that boring during the hourly bus ride. =)



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Now playing: Shane Mack - Lie To Me
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