Roasted Chicken?

I think I finally figured out whats the deal with the "Chicken" on my blog title.

chicken
· n.
1 a domestic fowl kept for its eggs or meat, especially a young one.
2 a coward.

OR according to the online slang dictionary.

chicken.
adjective

1. afraid.

Seriously, after what happened this past few days, I think I found the "answer".

The fact that I can't mutter ANYTHING out when I supposedly got some "signals" from X/Y/Z.

I'm so ANGRY and PISSED at myself.

I know I wanted to say HI so badly, but I got frozen in time and become so unapproachable and weird.

My Face = Expressionless. I shall call "him" Mr Chicken from now on.

For those who knows me well, I'm NOT like that. Totally.

At least that's what I would love to think. =)

I don't know why I'm so CHICKEN to say anything.

It's not like I got anything to lose.

This sucks.

After some self-reflecting, I came to a conclusion of that I'm that kinda person who OVER think everything and my obsession with the the concept of perfection when meeting the "ONE".

The Fear of REJECTION might be also part of the reason why.

At least I think that's the reason why I turn into Mr Chicken in the 1st place.

So I think I'm gonna change the blog title into something new and total random.

Roller Coaster: Laugh or Yell?

Discussed this over MSN with Princess and she managed to interpret it into something metaphorically like this...

Just like life. Its like a Roller Coaster. So you either Laugh it off happily Or Yell and despair.

It does make a lot of sense to me.

Thanks Princess =)

Nuff' ranting from me.

Thank you so much for reading.

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Courage is resistance to fear, mastery of fear - not absence of fear.
Except a creature be part coward it is not a compliment to say it is brave.
~Mark Twain, Pudd'nhead Wilson's Calendar, 1894

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